"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity."

-Edgar Allen Poe

An exceprt from the movie 12 Monkeys...

It's a condition of "mental divergence". I find myself on another planet, Ogo, part of an intellectual elite, preparing to subjugate barbarian hordes on Pluto. But even though it's a totally convincing reality in every way...I can feel, breathe, hear...nevertheless, Ogo is actually a construct of my psyche. I am mentally divergent in that I am escaping certain unnamed realities that plague my life here. When I stop going there, I will be well. Are you also divergent, friend?

-L.J. Washington


Saturday, November 14, 2009

Sing With Lust

Nina says...

Wouldn't it be something if I actually had the guts to sing in front of an audience.

I imagine it would be in some dive, blues bar, somewhere in the heart of New Orleans. Some old, run down place off Bourbon Street with too many stories. I would go on around 1:00 a.m., just as the night was winding down. The patrons would be drunk and tired, but they would wait for me. They couldn't possibly go to sleep until they'd heard me sing.

The lights would dim and a blue spot light would hit the stage. It would have to be blue. A smoky, male voice would be heard over the quiet rumble of the crowd. "Ladies and gentlemen... Miss Nina would like to bid you all good night."

I would walk onto the stage with me head down, dressed all in black. Calmly I would approach the microphone, still staring at the floor, waiting for my music to arrive. Out of the dark, the first piano notes would hit. And as I opened my mouth, I would look up, the electric blue of my eyes would overwhelm the moment.

My voice would be slow and steady, full of lost inhibitions and carnal desire. I would melt you.

"Love me love me love me
Say you do
Let me fly away
with you
For my love is like
the wind
And wild is the wind

Give me more
than one caress
Satisfy this
hungriness
Let the wind
blow through your heart
For wild is the wind

You...
touch me...
I hear the sound
of mandolins
You...
kiss me...
With your kiss
my life begins
You're spring to me
All things
to me

Don't you know you're
life itself
Like a leaf clings
to a tree
Oh my darling,
cling to me
For we're creatures
of the wind
And wild is the wind
So wild is the wind

Wild is the wind
Wild is the wind"


I would be wild and inconsolable. Something just beyond your reach. A creature not of this world. I would intoxicate you. Lead you on without you ever knowing it. I would take you to a different planet that felt like home.

I would be so beautiful.

"Do you get the gist of the song now?"
-Nina Simone

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